Mark 14:66-72 - Peter blows it

I tried to put myself in Peter's shoes, but it's quite hard to imagine. So I've just lost my most respected teacher, but I'm not allowed to show my depression, since I have to pretend I don't know Him. I'm also by myself, every one of my friends have left me. That's the setting we're in now.

So I'm scared, lonely, depressed, lost, angry(?) and disappointed. Suddenly, some woman comes and accuses me of being an accomplice of a "blasphemer" who was just executed. I would've done the exact same thing as Peter. Pretend to be clueless, to give myself time to think, then walk away from the area.

I blew it again recently. It's so hard not to. It's always just there as a distraction for me...