Internships

I'm one of the less academic Business students in Sydney. In my penultimate year, I did what every elite kid did, apply for summer vacation employment amongst all the big firms. What these vacation programs will do for us is, hopefully after 6 weeks of work with the company, they will decide that our work is alright, and they'll offer us a Graduate Position with them next year which means we can continue the final year of university without having to worry about graduating jobless. And I do believe that graduating jobless is one of the most common phobias for students in good universities.

So after failing two subjects, and my average not being very high at all, I gave it a shot without much expectation. Not only do I not have a strong application, I also missed a lot of the deadlines of the big companies. In the end, I got interviews to PwC (1st), WHK Horwath (5th) and BDO (6th) which was a miracle already. Out of the 3, I really wanted to go for BDO, because their company culture was way awesome. Everyone seemed mad to work with, and their partners were really chill. And I guess, because PwC is the world's biggest accounting firm, a little big inside of me kind of wanted to get that too, but I knew that was way too out of reach for someone dumb like me.

After going through all the long stages of different interviews and assessment centres, I wasn't confident that I'd get any of the 3 at all. I didn't do bad, but I didn't stand out either. But I was praying with my entire being that I get BDO, because I do believe they would hire me as a Grad afterwards.

The night after my PwC interview, they called me to give me an offer, I was shocked and REALLY happy. But also sad, because BDO and WHK didn't call me to offer me anything and it had been a day or two already. After consulting with parents and relatives, they convinced me to send the PwC contract back to them ASAP so I can take my mind off internships and focus on uni work.

I know for sure that God's the one who's in control of what I'll get. Because with my transcript, nobody would want me. I'm one of the weaker candidates in the commercial world.

Unfortunately, 30minutes after putting the contract into the mail, BDO called me to offer me. WHK also offered me soon after. I felt so bad knowing that I have to reject BDO and WHK, because I've already committed myself to PwC, and I know that at PwC people are a lot more competitive and I probably won't be offered a graduate position.

But at least I'm settled for this summer, whatever happens - whether I get an offer or not, I know that God planned the series of events to happen in that order, so that I'd be led to take up PwC. Let's see how things go from there.

But thank You for listening to my prayer, I really don't deserve what You've given me. There are a million other people who are more worthy to get what I've received, but I know there must be a purpose behind it all.

Acts 7:51-8:1 - Jesus, the Master

Stories like Stephen's always makes me scared for a lot of reasons... I'm scared because the way I call Him Lord is totally different to when Stephen says it. Whatever he's doing, it agrees with what he's saying, and even until the end you can see who his master is. I'm also scared because if I work on my weakness of not really placing God as my master in my life, and eventually I follow Him with all of me, I'll end up like Stephen.

There's huge cost and huge privileges to be a living sacrifice, and I don't know whether I'm seeing the privileges as clearly as I see the cost.

Acts 4:24-31 - Fearless Confidence

I've always really admired the book of Acts, every story in there is inspirational and still applicable. Basically it's a bunch of traditionally "unqualified" people who are chosen and used by God for His works and to suffer for Him.

Once a story starts becoming not applicable, I think there's a problem. I've got a problem. I don't remember the last time I've suffered. I'm just living life in my comfort zone, never feeling the need to plea for fearless confidence to keep going, because life is such a breeze.

I just want some sort of fervor back...