John 20:19-29 - Take your fingers and examine My hands

Even better blessings are in store for those who believe without seeing.


Most disciples these days don't have problems with believing without seeing, it's not like we expect to see visions every day. But I guess the same concept of when Jesus breathed the Holy Spirit into the disciples, we have been breathed into. But we always doubt or disregard our identity and power. It's time to get ready to plunge back into fight mode, and not rely on myself to do my own things.

John 17:20-26 - One heart and mind

So... Jesus was praying a prayer for us. Or us individually. He's praying that we'd be one heart and mind with Him and other followers, so that we'll be mature in this oneness so that we can be part of His revealing of who He is to the rest of the world.

God's love for Jesus is in us, because Jesus is in us. Which also means that we'll have His glory as well.

What a great deal we got here, I'm glad I'm on the right side.

Refuel - Doug Fields

Name: Refuel
Tagline: An uncomplicated guide to connecting with God
Author: Doug Fields


I loved this book, it's like... every dying fire's rescue crew. I started reading this book in the beginning of June when I had to get the car serviced, and had 3 hours to kill in West Ryde. So like any bored Christian would do in that area, I naturally walked into Koorong and started reading different books and listening to any new CDs. That day, I bought a new slimline note taking Bible, a Sanctus Real CD, and of course, Refuel.

I only got through half the book at the time. The book was actually finished in mid June when I went to MQ Uni to catch up with some yearly reading plans.

Basically this is the summary of the book:

• Everyone's a Spiritual Loser. At any one point in our walk, we'd be running on empty, even though it's really easy to act otherwise. Trust me, all your leaders know how to act Spiritually High, constantly.
• Running on empty means the warning light is flashing, and these are signs like being easily frustrated, huge amounts of procrastination, stress, and losing control of life.
• All newbie drivers don't realise how quickly a car needs to be refueled, likewise, we always think our regular sermons, bible studies, camps etc will keep us going for a while. Well, we're wrong.
• We need to be charged daily. (I keep thinking about that Duracell ad, where the rabbits running low on batteries were dying in the race. Similarly, we're probably dying in the "race" talked about by Paul)
• We are designed for greatness. So we need to Stop, Be quiet (or be still) and make a connection.

Well, if I have to say it in a one liner, I'll say that our lives need to be slowed down.

Thanks, Fields!

2010 7th Month Review

So it's July already, and I've skipped on a few months of acting out on my resolutions. It's no wonder I failed LEGT2741. In these couple of months, a few things took over my life... Mainly sports related. Basketball, football and of course, NBA and the FIFA World Cup. I'm ridiculous.

Every single one of my goals, I've failed in. FML.

Midyear reset!! Let's go!

John 14:15-17 - The Friend

It's such a shame that I had to miss out on going to MYC, the topic this year was on the Holy Spirit, the most neglected personhood of the Trinity. Whenever I think about the Spirit, I remember the sermon by I think Andrew Lim, 10 years ago, or more, about our conscience which is the evil persona, and the Holy Spirit which is the angel persona in our inner voices. Every time we listen to ourselves, I visualise the evil persona piercing the angelic persona, and the HP of the angelic persona diminishes, and His Voice starts to go weaker as well. But every time we listen to the angelic persona, our own voice dies and gets weaker and weaker. I actually believe that that's how it works, but too bad I can never act upon it.

I pray that I can begin to feel the presence stronger and stronger, and that as I drive, walk, work, study, interact with others etc, I will always call on the Spirit for guidance for the thoughts I think, the words I speak and the decisions I make. I remembered a dilemma I had a couple nights ago, which I forgot to ask about. No wonder I couldn't answer it!

22 Jul 2010

Seems like it's been a while when I sat here in my room feeling like I have the time to reflect on life. It's definitely something that I should be doing more often... Be Still.

A lot has changed since the last God Encounter entry, that was after the Refueled book. I still think about that book, but I never had enough self discipline to live it out. I've discovered a new target, even though I'm not doing so well myself, I hope I can still help her through her quest for growth.

Going back to uni feels so different. Maybe because I'm bald now, but I felt so uncomfortable, until I went back to my familiar groups. Perhaps I'm running out of socialising skills, or maybe it's just my fear of losing control of something that I've been chasing previously. I pray that this new hair will keep reminding me to become a better person, it's a metaphor for shedding the excess luxuries, which I used grasp so tightly.

It's almost a year now since my last spiritual high. Must get my act together.

John 12:20-36 - Holding on to Life

"Fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out." - Romans 12:2.

How appropriate. Just when I'm thinking that my focus has shifted... Jesus talks about when people hold onto life, we're actually blocking the growth that could come of it. Which is true, obviously. There's so many things that I'm chasing at the moment, and by the way I prioritise everything, I think it's pretty clear what's going on.

So... how have You been? Seems like we should catch up...

John 10:1-18 - Knowing the Good Shepherd

I remember doing this about 3-4 weeks ago at the Bella Vista lake when the whole tribunal thing happened, but due to laziness it was never blogged.

A good shepherd is willing to lay down His own life, out of His own free will, to protect His flock.

I hate birds. When I was there, it was almost raining at around 4pm. All the birds in the area were flying back into their nest, and I was sitting there next to the lake freaking out. But in my fear, none of them dirtied me, or swooped me or anything. In the midst of the whole tribunal chaos, even though we spent so much effort trying to figure out every flaw in the case, in the end it was something unexpected that helped us through. Nothing's in our control, and we'll be safe in His arms always.

John 8:1-11 - No Condemnation

This was the passage I did when I finished my exams, and went to MQUni to do some catch up reading.

Go on your way. From now on don't sin.