15 Feb 2010

So it's the day after CNY, which coincides with Valentine's Day as well.

Someone asked me if that day still bothers me, I don't think so. But me being "célibataire" seems to bring joy to people when I whinge, so maybe it's not at all that bad =)

It's been like the 3rd week in a row when we've split up to different places to eat. Maybe it's not that healthy. Our shepherd has spent a lot of effort in trying to unite us, and we've come a long way. Sometimes I become selfish, and want to indulge in better food, and I'm not willing to compromise that just to be together. Perhaps it's time to change.

I hate it when things clash with each other. They're all good things on their own. But once they clash, you have to  force yourself to prioritise them correctly otherwise it might be a bad example, or people might stumble. Why do You present us with all these choices? I'm sure You could have put them on separate days. I know it's our fault for forgetting about it when we planned, but still!!

You are pretty awesome. I've just never took the time to envy myself of all the blessings You've given me, especially the people You put around me. I'm such a brat.

But then, You also plaaced such wonderful role models for me... How the heck am I supposed to reach such a high standard?!

Start of another devotion group thing, which is part of Jwalking. There's 8 people including myself, I hope I don't fail halfway like I failed the other time. Give me strength to do it everyday. 7am is kind of good for my 2010 resolution too.

Going to dinner and watching the show with you alone, eh? We really have come a long way mending. Pray nothing goes wrong.

Last week You gave me so many opportunities to spend time with my family. I have so much.

There's too many people now, it's all becoming too much. What have You got planned?

Project Timebomb

So it's been a decade since we've started and finished this project, and it lasted 13 weeks.

True I've skipped days. Actually I might've even skipped more days than the days when I followed the prayer plan.

But thank You for changing my attitude.

I totally forgot about this project until this morning when You reminded me, and inspired me to use this as a Godly example to share about. Especially after yesterday's sermon about our actions of sharing Your love is what makes love complete.

Zephaniah 3:9-13 - At Home in God

The way that Zephaniah puts it, sin and holiness are reflected by our language.

"In the end I will turn things around for the people. I'll give them a language undistorted, unpolluted..."

Looks like it's time to clean my mouth. Don't burn my lips with coal please.

The end of the passage is quite interesting... these holy people, they don't use words to flatter or seduce. And they're content with who they are and where they are. It doesn't seem to really illustrate me right now, but that's okay. We'll start with my tongue.

Prejudice

I have so much prejudice against dirty things...

My family went to have lunch in the inner west, the streets were filthy, the shops were seedy and the people didn't seem hygienic. After lunch, we went on a grocery expedition... When I picked up an item in the shop, this unidentified goo went on my hands... I thought I was just unlucky. So I picked up the one next to it which was seemingly clean, but the bottom was brown. Those dirty places are just so filthy and uninhabitable...

It seems like a long time since we just hung out afterwards at night. I almost forgot how chillaxing it is.

Zephaniah 2:3-10 - God shows up

I think we've all grown up in the midst of other people's taunts, self-importance, pride and mockery. When we read passages like these, we think of Moab and Ammon as them baddies. Never us.

We see ourselves as Judah, being rescued by God in our everyday lives from our evil bosses, or mean frenemies, or just our peers in general.

Know that through our God's consistency, that we will relive Judah's experience whenever we're suffering from humiliation.

Zephaniah 1:7-11 - The balance between being just and being merciful

This reminded me of the sermon about who God is. Whether He's like Santa, or whether He's always angry.

Can God be merciful AND just at the same time? Because being just means He needs to show us our sins and our short comings, but doesn't that go against mercy?

Complacency and rebellion.

But I can feel what love truly is, because through my complacency and rebellion, I am still blessed. Due to His mercy. Justice is given through as blessings, when He shows me my rebellion and guilt, but am forgiven for it.

Zephaniah

Devotions on the book of Zephaniah

Zephaniah 1:7-11 - The balance between being just and being merciful
Zephaniah 2:3-10 - God shows up
Zephaniah 3:9-13 - At home in God

Habakkuk 3:1-6 - Holy Judge, Remember Mercy

Let my fears and pride be exposed for what they are, and keep them from distorting my picture of who you are.

New Years Resolution Review - 1st Month

I'm eating out less. But I still splurge. And I don't read the Bible regularly enough to keep up with the plan... and apparently I don't sleep before 1am either. But the morning thing is somewhat working. And my room is bloody clean.

Today was a fairytale

My friend showed me this song yesterday, now it's in my head. But today was a fairytale indeed.

26-5, or was it 25-6? Either way, we won our first game!!!

I saw something beautiful today, mankind are definitely God's most proud creation.
Well, at least the ones around me. Mostly.

What am I doing? Why do I need to keep up that image? Maybe it's because last time when I disappointed you guys, the expression on your faces killed me.

There's this dream I keep having... well I don't know whether it's a dream that I'm driving myself. One year, eh? And then comes the change? It might be a good break. It makes me wonder how long it takes for people to forget someone who you call "significant" in your life. Someone who you think, at this very moment in time, you will never forget. From experience, once they leave or go overseas, maybe 3 or 4 years max with minimal contact will be enough for them to become just another name. Unless of course if they're Heroes of Old, like those in my life. How tragic would it be if I took like a tenth of the time.

I feel so focused and productive now. The blame was never supposed to be put on anybody but.

Months of planning and weeks of preparation, was all for 5hours. But those 5 hours made me see so much that I missed previously. Well all the prep work did too. I'm so blessed.

Your issue really bothers me. Maybe I'm just being childish... but I thought I got there first...


Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale


Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale